Im a married 34F, my husband and I have always talked on and off about opening up our relationship and it felt like something we were both excited to explore.

only sharing this for context please no comments on this part: A year ago he had an affair (our relationship was not open at this point) and since then he has agreed to me having my own experiences with new people. And he has found it a big turn on too. So our relationship is currently open on one side—being mine.

My issue is that whenever I meet a new guy and start seeing them, I immediately get jealous that they are probably seeing other women besides me. If he can’t hangout or something I immediately get peeved that he’s probably out on a date with someone else. I don’t know why this bothers me so much or even why it comes up. I barely know these men, and IM MARRIED. Like I’m clearly seeing someone else…so why does it bug me if they are??

I’ve never been non-monogamous and even though I find it fun and thrilling I hate that I keep feeling this way.

Advice or help?!