I am (32f) and my partner is (33m). He is the love of my life and I will absolutely never leave him as I am his as well. We recently found our third and she is amazing! And she is alot like me and I cam see us growing to be best friends.

I am very new to having a third in a relationship. I am alittle jealous I will admit. Likely because my ex I was with for 3 plus years cheated on me multiple times and assaulted me multiple times.

I am having a really hard time with the thought of my boyfriend sleeping or anything sexual with another woman without me there (I love watching him fuck other women and me fucking them too). But just the thought of him sleeping with another woman without me makes me really jealous, it sucks. And I feel bad saying that I don't want him to have sex or anything sexual with her without me. But I cry if even thinking about it. I really want this to work out though.

Anyone else have this type of jealousy? What did you do to help with it?