For some reason I just really feel the need to write this out. Went to meet up with my partner and the person they went on a date with. Everything was great and I really liked meeting the person, but then I went outside when we were going to leave to get in our rideshare and assumed my partner was following behind me. I looked inside and saw my partner and the person kissing. Of course, I should’ve assumed that this was going to happen. They were on a date, they were saying goodbye, kissing can be a part of the ritual. But it still hit me hard and made me feel like my partners friend waiting for them to leave with me. Having trouble being okay with it and also not being mad at myself for not being okay with it lol. In the grand scheme of things, we’re new to this. I have a lot of weird trauma and anxiety that I’m trying to work through. The usual things.