I have been dealing with a lot. Confronting my feelings for some of my friends and talking with them about it, and it has not been very good. Mind you, these friends have been very flirty with me throughout our friendship, up to and includincluding sending me suggestive pictures and texts... and then I asked about our relationship and any reservations they had taking it to the next stage of progression and actually trying something romantic. This question has led to me losing several of the very few friends I have. It is honestly quite hurtful since they have been friends with me for well over a decade at this point, and have told me multiple times that they love me and want to fuck me... then the moment I express actually including any sort of physical aspect to our relationship I am somehow made to be the bad guy. It throws our entire relationship into perspective and really makes me question why they would tell me they love me, send me pictures or texts like that or even tell me that they want to fuck me, if the moment I actually express any sort of romantic interest in them they are going to send me a novelette on everything wrong with me and behave like I am some interloper in their lives when they chose to include me in it and encouraged me to stay. Someone please explain this to me, because I am heartbroken by the fact that these people that I considered to be some of the greatest loves of my lifetime, now have expressed in no uncertain terms that want nothing to do with me.