I’m a 27 year old trans guy. I am pansexual. My partner is 26 non-binary AFAB.

Here’s the updated version with the final sentence added:

We just celebrated four years together last month. I began transitioning shortly after we started dating, and in that time, I’ve also become more in tune with my sexuality. Since realizing I’m a trans guy who is pansexual, I’ve discovered that I’m interested in being with other men—now in a gay way, which is different from how I approached relationships with men when I was cis and straight. I’m also curious about being with other trans people and exploring things like cruising.

As part of this self-discovery, I’ve expressed a desire to explore my sexuality with other people while making it very clear that I’m deeply in love with my partner and see a future with them, including marriage.

We moved in together this past June, and we’ve been discussing moving to a new city when our lease ends. But this has been on the fence because my partner has been flip-flopping on whether they’re okay with me being open. They don’t have any interest in being with others, and while we’ll have a great couple of weeks together, the topic resurfaces and makes them question our relationship. They’ve admitted they’re not sure if they want to be with someone who wants to be open.

I understand it’s not as simple as “just break up.” I love them deeply, and what we have is incredible. But I’m torn. Is it worth risking our relationship to explore this part of myself, or should I prioritize the amazing connection we already share?