Hi! As I write this I know I'm gonna feel like I'm being stupid!

I should preface this by saying that due to other things going on in my life, I am pretty emotionally vulnerable right now. And am not in a great state of mind.

So I've (36f) been chatting to another woman (36f) for about 6 weeks now. We've met once. She wanted to get to know me a bit before meeting - all good.
She says consistent communication in between dates is important to her. There have been a handful of times when she's gone a day or two before replying - either because she's been super busy or because of a family emergency, or being ill, whatever. But other than that we've talked every day, usually multiple times a day.

But this last week - her Dad is ill and is having to have lots of appointments at the hospital to figure out what's wrong. And her husband has been working overtime. And she has a busy life at the best of times. So she's been super stressed and running low on reserves - her words.

So she messaged on Sunday morning as usual. On Tuesday afternoon I sent her a quick message to see if her and her dad was ok. She apologised for going quiet and explained the situation. And said she would reply properly when she had some head space. It's Friday now and still nothing.

I feel totally pathetic about this but it's really bothering me. 1 - because I simply enjoy talking to her and it makes me smile. 2 - because I can see she is updating her insta story multiple times a day and has also been active on the dating site we met on. I know logically these things take a matter of minutes to do or less (and her insta is her business so I guess she feels she needs to do that for visibility and all she does is repost other people's stuff so it can't take long at all). But it's just left me feeling totally unimportant and like she isn't interested in me. If she isn't, that's OK, but I wish she'd just tell me!

I go between it really winding me up and making me down, to moments of sanity and not being so pathetic when I tell myself 'she's going through a tough time, she just needs time and space'. She's told me she can get socially exhausted even in normal situations (although talking online doesn't normally do it) and I know she's super stressed and busy and I know what it's like to just want to sit in a dark room and not talk to anyone!
But at the same time it's just making me super anxious and insecure and down! And I know that's pathetic!

Rant over!!