I’m sorry English is not my first language and I will try to keep this short.. my wife and I been married for 10 years now and got 3 kids together and idk if I would call it open but we would bring thirds mostly male gender now and then to spice up the relationship. We dont usually fight but when we do it’s world war with each other. We dont have a huge friend circle, so it just me and her and kids. She always gets the freedom to choose any man she wants to play with. So year and a half ago we went to a cosplay event, and she found herself a guy to play with and I supported that since we do that often. We love threesomes.. He had a problem with performance with me around and my wife gave him full attention almost making me feel like a cuck. Since there are plenty of fish in the sea I told her to get over him and find someone else but her NRE towards him was so strong that it nearly broke our marriage. I needed to find an outlet to vent so I found someone to share my problems with. I refused to do anything with this person even when I had a chance but I fell for her “oh no you been married to this women for so long and she still had to think before choosing her husband over the new toy” talk. Like I said it almost broke my marriage. After therapy we did better in marriage. I put 110% into this relationship. Fast forward to year and a half later. We once again went to a cosplay event. This time she found herself two guys. I’m sorry to say this but My god one of them is bad looking.. but I let her have her way since I support her fun life. Although I don’t like em. They text on our mutually shared insta. Everything is fine. My wife never strikes as a jealous person and she said so herself. So for ONCE I wanted to pursue someone else. She said next time she visits the hometown we can do it together. I was thrilled. So fast forward to today.. wide had said she wanted to eat pasta today so I made pasta and took my daughter to the mall while my wife was fast asleep. It’s “that” time of the month so she’s tired and I dint want to wake her. I dropped my daughter off at home and I went straight back to work thinking my wife is asleep. Apparently she was up and missed me. We usually keep each other company on phone while we work since we both drive Uber. Strangely she dint call me but just texted. So dint press her.. I called my “friend” to talk to her instead since she was leaving Texas and it was long drive to New York. I told my wife that thinking she would be okay remember I never thought she was a jealous kind I came back at bit me. Lot of loud exchanges happen and I said “ I let you pick men to text and do anything with and you have a problem with me being on a damn phone with her? You got no right to be mad..” well apparently that ain’t a nice thing to say. My wife thought it would be a repeat of year and a half. She disregarded everything I did and effort I put into this marriage. When I forgive her, I forget what she did as well to move forward because holding on to something will only destroy the relationship. I told her that and she said “you choose to do it. Forgive and forget but I dint” on top of that she said she wants to say something and I hear her out but as soon as she started her “over thinking rant” my god I wanted to get up and run. Mind you this is at a park at 2:00 am, which she took me to romantically walk and reconcile but it went south.

Idk what to do and I’m sorry about the rant. We both are fairly good looking people. She makes it so hard to stay our 90% of our marriage is good but that 10% is too much to bear. Sex life is good, we are good parents, she’s a good wife but I made a monster out of her since I forgive in an instant and when I do I actually move on. I don’t hold her accountable. I don’t get the same courtesy. Today I found out that she feels like she did a lot of changing in this relationship but I been molding myself in such a way that she never had to. Right when I think I know someone.. ending it is easy but I got kids with her and like I said marriage with this woman is good but she’s down right disrespectful and hurtful.

Thank you again yall.. fuck my life haha

Edit: I’m so sorry if I make any mistakes. It’s 3:58 am I’m tired but in pain