I (33m) and my gf (24f) have been together for going on 2 years. We have a bit of an age gap that's not too substantial on our physical bodies however it does a little on maturity. However I have been very patient with her and understanding of her needs. Tonight she told she was comfortable enough to ask me if we could explore an open relationship. Her reasoning is that she has something to fulfill with an old crush that was almost a thing but never took off. Personally before I had met her I was totally fine with nonmon but we decided to close off our relationship for practical and I guess you could say "getting to know each other deeper" reasons. Which i will admit I'm in love with her deeply. My real reason being here is that I feel weird about it. On one hand, fuck yeah. I can do what I used to do before we met. And experience every part of life. On the other..... I guess well I feel im truly unprepared and a little off put by the idea of looking for partners. But I also do know that I'm good at it. Help.... I feel like a paradox. I want it but I don't but I don't want to lose that chance...... wtf......