okay so, im in my early 20s for context. my long term relationship ended last may, it was monogamous other than playing with a third on some occasions. after that relationship ended I didnt want to get into another relationship for a while.

I started planning a trip to europe. i have some friends here. i met this guy online yearsss ago, like 2018 and he lives in london. so part of this trip was going to london and finally meeting him in person after these years. i know we would hook up and whatever while I was with him.

anyways, in june I met a guy who is absolutely perfect in every way and so I got into a relationship with him, im still with him and very happy

before we started dating I told him that I have a trip planned and im staying with a guy and wanted to know how he felt about it and he was honestly okay with it, he was supportive and said he seems like a nice guy and its my first time in europe and im young and whatever so go for it

well now im on the trip and will be going to london next week. i keep asking my boyfriend how he feels about it and if he told me it made him feel bad then I honestly wouldnt go see this guy, id stay somewhere else

my boyfriend is still okay with it but I feel weird because I would not be okay with him doing the same thing. I feel bad that im going to do this because im truly a very jealous person and really would not be okay with something like this

is this wrong? im trying to trust what he says and trust that he’s okay with it but if he told me he was doing the same thing it would be an absolute no and I hate that im like that. id love to be accepting of the fact that he can enjoy other people and still enjoy me too but im just not there yet