Been with my husband for 10 years altogether and about two years ago we opened the marriage just on my end. I haven’t had sex with anyone yet but I do engage in kissing, dates, sexting, stuff like that. It’s tame but I enjoy it a lot. The problem I’m having is that I feel guilt sometimes because I’m too jealous of him to open it on his end. He always reassures me that he’s fine and wants me to do what I’m doing but I can’t stop the feeling I have. I feel selfish I guess. Also I think I’m getting to a point where I might be interested in sex with someone else. Once again, husband is totally cool with it but I have this worry that if I finally go through with it, he will want another woman. That would destroy me. Anyone ever deal with a situation like this? I have no desire to get divorced or leave my husband. I can’t imagine being married to anyone else.