I always considered myself heterosexual and monogamous, of course until I fell in love with someone of the same sex and was intimate, albeit unethically, with lovers of the opposite sex.

Now that I am older, 1 realize that I would like to be ethical (transparent with my partner) but keep the dynamic a female and male relationship.

I feel so free to express myself sexually with a woman or women and under the right circumstances a man but I feel there are so many people who 1. dont have the maturity or security to share and 2. Feel like I will get bored and leave so they act out of character to get me to leave.

Ive also met people who lie because they enjoy it. This is not what I want. I just want the best of both worlds because I can't find everything in one but I'm loyal. lt's not just physical for me but listening to where other people's stopping points are.

Because I'm still learning the different communities out there. I wonder are there other people who are looking for what I am? And if so, what label(s) fall under what I am and what I am looking for, in your opinion.