Me (F26) and my boyfriend (M27) have been together for 3.5 years and we really love each other. We have an open relationship since the beginning and we both believe that's our relationship path.

During this time, I was the first to hook up with someone else. I did it with a girl 3 times and that's it. Then a year later I had a short thing with a guy and kissed a couple people at a carnival party. My partner hooked up once with a girl last year and it was the first time he has been with someone else while been in a relationship with me.

But this year he met a girl at work and they really got along. He told me he wanted to have sex with her and I was jealous but said ok. The girl lives in another town and came to our town for a meeting at their office so they saw each other for the first time face to face (they both work from home) and then they had sex. She went back home but said she would like to see him again so they were planning to do it in a month when she would be able to come to our town again. My bf was telling me everything while it was happening and to be honest I was going crazy hahaha I was super jealous and even though he's always saying that he loves me and that our relationship is his priority, I can't find peace. I feel hypocrite because I had fun with other people but when it's his turn I feel super jealous and insecure.

I need advice on how to handle this because I totally understand him having attraction to other people since I feel the same way. I want him to experience his desires and be free, and I see how much he loves me and wants to be with me. But when he's interested in other girls I feel he's gonna leave me, my heart breaks and it hurts a lot.