I love my partner so much. We're long distance right now. A part of me deep down doesn't feel like I'll ever feel compersion. I've been working on my issues, in therapy, I'm even medicated now but I still struggle with jealousy. We've been open since we started dating but she's been the only in the relationship to engage in dating/hookups. I have been in a weird stage in my life where it doesn't interest me (to date anyone else or hook up/be intimate with anyone who isn't my GF).

This is someone I imagined a future with but at this time I'm wondering if I need to break up with her and accept that this style of relationship isn't for me? I really love the basic concept of non-monogamy but in practice it just feels too hard.

Any advice? thoughts? similar stories/struggles?