I've done a lot of reading here to see if my particular question has come up before, and I'm a bit nervous about what kind of responses I'll get. But I'm going to go for it and ask for advice or thoughts from you all anyway. You've had many experiences that we haven't, and may see any red flags we haven't, or issues that we haven't explored yet.

Hubby and I (F) are in our late 40's and have been together for over 25 years, we have 2 great kids. I did a lot of therapy before and early-on in our relationship, and hubby and I have done extensive work on our relationship as well. We are in a really, really good place right now.

I had a difficult childhood with religious trauma, I basically grew up in a cult. Was very isolated in HS, no social life, no exposure to sex or dating at all. Hubby had a pretty "normal' time of things, going to some parties, having some (safe) sexual fun as a teenager. Sex was always a tricky issue for us; I didn't always seem that into it or comfortable with it and hubby always felt guilty or like he was pressuring me to be intimate with him (it was always consensual, to be clear). In '21 I had an epiphany of sorts, and through lots & lots of serious talks with hubby, I finally became more comfortable with and open about sex. The last three years have been absolutely amazing and we are even closer than we've ever been.

We are intimate together daily, which mainly consists of making out, mutual masturbation, use of toys, and too many orgasms for me to count. Hubby LOVES to please me. I'm a lucky, lucky girl!!! Unfortunately, due to some health issues (cancer, arthritis, etc), we aren't really able to have good, penetrative sex. Here's where the sticky part comes:

For a while now, I have been desiring a little more, I guess, than hubby & I are able to physically do. It's not imperative, it's not something I'm issuing ultimatums over or anything like that. But I'm really craving it. I'm horny now, what can I say. And hubby said he'd like that for me, too. He feels bad that I missed out on the opportunity to experiment and have fun like other teens often do. Aaaaaand then he told me that a couple of mutual friends (male) have told him that they think I'm attractive and they'd like to sleep with me (individually, not a group thing). Gulp. (This would be just sex, not a regular dating thing, as far as I know. I'm not looking to have an ongoing relationship with anyone else besides my hubby, but just to have some sex with other guys. And these are guys that we both know and trust.)

We've talked about it at length. Hubby says he's okay with it and happy for me, but is nervous about how he might feel when it's actually happening, if we go through with it. I'm really interested, especially since I've never been with anyone besides my husband. But if something happened to damage our marriage, I don't think I could ever forgive myself. (Hubby is not interested in anything extra for himself.)

For now, it's something fun to talk about and fantasize about together during our intimate time. But it occupies my thoughts A LOT and I'm seriously considering it. If the opportunity does become more of a "let's find a day that works" and not just a "it might be fun if..." I'm not sure what to do. So I guess if anyone has any constructive advice or shared experiences, I'd be interested to hear it. Thanks!