I (25F, Bi) feel that i have been non monogamous my whole life, and multiple times i tried to focus in just my partner but its feeling like almost going against my nature, I always end up developing a crush on someone else at the same time.

On the other hand, I’m afraid of the feelings and responsability it comes with telling people you are NM. Deep inside I’m also afraid of feeling rejected, and it makes me sad that my brain makes everything so much more complicated, like, why can’t I just stick to one person??

If I like more than one person it just makes life more dificult because there are so much feelings to deal with and more people to care about. I also have adhd which doesnt help, maybe it explains why im always seeking the dopamine of being with someone new.

How did you guys accepted this about yourselves?

Obs: I’m completely fine with this lifestyle, I’m just afraid of what will be my consequences with it so I’m seeking some empathy and advice :’) sry about my english.