I have a previous post talking about some issues that my husband (Aspen) and I have been having recently about how close he was getting to a person that is part of our FWB circle. I have realized over the last few days, after sitting down with several conversations and self reflecting, that my jealousy was taking over me. I let that little voice in the back of my head tell me things that were incorrect. I almost let it kill my marriage and possibly my relationship with our third. Things aren't great still but they are better than they were a few days ago.

My husband has had a few conversations with Cedar over the last few days and he seems to be in a lot better spirits and I am very happy for him. Things seem to be getting better in the communication department with Cedar about expectations and wants and needs going forward for them to still be able to be FWBs and Cedar seems to have been mostly receptive of it.

Later today I am going to be going over to Fir and Gingko's place alone for a hangout. My husband is giving me as much trust as he can in this situation. I have expressed to him my hope to be able to include him in the future because both Fir and Gingko have expressed interest in him as well. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous for this meetup. This is the first time that either of us would be having truly alone time with someone that we are talking to/ want to be with on a sexual level outside of our circle. I am hoping that it goes well and hope that I don't break the trust that both of my partners are giving me in this instance.