You can find my last post here

After we had “the talk”, we met for lunch a week later. It was lovely and we chatted as usual, about going ons in work and life. I told her to let me know if she was free in the evening any day (booty call) and she said she’ll let me know.

It’s been two weeks since then and it has been radio silence. I’ve also not texted her anything, respecting her space. But it has been a painful two weeks for me and Ive had to do a lot of self regulation on a daily basis. Now the talk we had seems like a soft rejection and i find it weird that the intensity can go from 100 to 0 like that. I can’t shake of the emotion of feeling small and insignificant and it seems highly unlikely of receiving anything from her (my perception). Maybe im expecting some form a good bye?

Add to that, we go to the same climbing gym. Although bumping into her is unlikely but not improbable. Im dreading the feeling of pretending to be happy acquaintance if it had to occur.

I’m trying my best to approach it with lightness and keep reminding myself that it’s not that serious but clearly I’m in highly emotional and fatigued state. I can of course text her again to meet, but am afraid the pattern may just endlessly continue.