Okay. Before we start I just wanna let you know that this may sound a little messy but please don’t judge me.

I have been in a relationship for 4-5 years. We had always talked about being non-monogomous and opening our relationship but we never really explored it until a few months ago. Well in February I met this guy and he is so exciting to me. A lot of fun, and whenever we get together we always have a great time. He knows I’m open and is down with it all so before we started a more intimate relationship with each other, we created “rules” or boundaries that we’d live by to make this enjoyable for us both. I really wanted to explore this because sexually, I am a bit unsatisfied in my relationship.. my partner is vanilla, and I’m learning through interactions with this guy that I have more of an inclination towards pleasure with kinks. As I said earlier, he is a lot of fun. My partner and I still have sex occasionally but not as much as we used to.

Here’s where the story begins. My partner and I had unprotected sex March 22. He for sure nutted in me as we thought we were in the lower chance days of getting pregnant. We had done this before and it worked so we had no worries. I had sex with my fwb the next day. I was drunk. It was protected but for some reason (this is where it sounds bad), I don’t know if he pulled the condom off cause when he pulled out, I remember feeling something drop on my leg. He has a big dick. I hate to say it but his dick is bigger than my partners, almost twice as big and my partner has a nice size too, but when we fucked the other day, and the time before that, which was a couple weeks ago, I noticed that each time he would remove himself with the condom on, liquid would fall out of me and that never happened before. So I’m thinking that just happens because of how big he is? Idk… any way my period is late and it’s pretty regular. I’ve been having unusual cravings so I decided to take a test to ease my mind and I am in fact very pregnant.

My boo and I have a weekend planned together and I have decided on not keeping the baby because of the situation it was created in but I’m debating on if I should even tell him that I’m currently pregnant. I know and think that I should, I’m just afraid it will ruin our chances of enjoying our weekend. But then I don’t feel like I have to tell him because I’m not keeping it anyway… idk I never imagined myself in a situation like this but here I am.

My partner knows I’m pregnant but he doesn’t know that I’ve been seeing someone else because when we opened up, he said he didn’t want to know or find out. He is supportive of whatever decision I decide to make.