My wife and I want to explore ENM, in the form of threesomes. We've discussed this fantasy for years and for years, I teeter on the edge of wanting to do this and thinking it will be a disaster. After much self reflection, I've come to the conclusion that I'm not emotionally mature enough for this. I carry tons of insecurities and anxieties from childhood trauma. I worry about this being a gateway to more serious types of ENM, that I'm even less prepared for. I worry my wife won't want to return to monogamy or that I'll just hold her back.

So, I've decided that before I decide on if this is something I really do want, I need to work on myself, I need therapy... I also, have no idea what that means. What kind of therapy do I need? Is there a specific type of therapist I should be looking for? Should I include my wife? I don't think any of this falls under the umbrella of marriage counseling but, I honestly have no idea.

Any suggestions or advice would be appreciated. Thanks.