I've been feeling a bit detached from my partner lately. Overall things have been really good between us. Its small things that I have been noticing but there was recently a bigger situation that happened that has kicked my worries into overdrive. We discussed it and plan to discuss things more in the next couple of days. I really appreciate that he is taking my feelings to heart and listening. In my brain I can look at the situation objectively and say: "we are handling this well, hes there for you and wants to be with you" but my lizard brain is melting down. I don't know where this all stems from and its all very confusing.

I do genuinely feel like the situation that occurred is objectively not great and we need to sort it out but I feel like the level of worry, confusion and feeling overwhelmed and sure he doesn't want to be with me is way out of proportion. I feel like I can't trust my own feelings right now and thats making it so hard to figure out how to handle things.

I know therapy would be really helpful. I have tried several times to find someone in my area that is 1) covered by my insurance; 2) accepting new patients; 3) someone I connect with and trust and I haven't been successful. I've looked at private pay but most aren't accepting patients either and I can't afford $200/session even once a month and there do not seem to be sliding scale options available, that I've found anyways. I keep looking here and there but to put things in perspective, if I reach out to 20 therapists I'll get 1-2 responses and at least one of those isn't accepting new patients. Its been really difficult.

I'm wondering what resources folks here have found to help with working through attachment issues. I know there are several books, which one do you recommend? Anything else I should try while I continue to find therapy resources?