I am new to this whole poly thing. I found a woman, who I truly love, she's the most beautiful woman I've ever known and she's all I ever think about. I'd been with her, intimately, a lot, prior to recent events. I'll sum it up. Her and I have been together for a little while, she recently got another partner, he moved to be with her, and I moved shortly thereafter(it had already been planned just needed a more optimal date due to other reasons I won't go into). Well the first night was great, performed just as usual, she went and performed with him after that, it made me want to perform again, but she was too sore so needed to wait. Day 2, I'm still adjusting, guess I had a lot of anxiety and was setting a really uncomfortable vibe so, didn't get to do anything. Day 3. I heard them in the kitchen performing, it made me excited, so I went to wait my turn, and.... I lost it. I thought, maybe it was just stage fright? Maybe it's the fear of the new setting? Maybe it's the fear of doing it so publicly in front of another person?(again, all of this is new to me) I don't know. It wasn't an issue. After dinner, she came to me... and still... I couldn't get up. I was able to get up minutes prior to her entering, I sent her a picture showing her what was waiting. And while I waited, it went down, and I couldn't get it back up. Now.. she thinks I don't find her attractive, she's given me the ultimatum, figure it out, or leave... I love this woman, I want to do this, I want to make this work. When I hear them performing, it makes me incredibly excited, but... when it comes time for me to perform, it's like my body gets shy and scared and doesn't know what to do.. please... if anyone can help me, any advice..