So I’m only 24 and I’ve been with the same girl that I’ve been in high school with. I feel like a piece of shit because I have been caught messaging other girls. I tell myself it’s just platonic but I know I’m lying to myself. I love the woman I’m with but I find myself just wanting to meet other women. I wasn’t exactly pulling girls in high school but once I started college I noticed it wasn’t me but it was my race and in a predominantly white conservative school in the South no girls really ever gave me a shot. I find myself never being jealous of her exploring either. I truly believe if she wanted to have experiences with other people I would never be jealous. If anything I want to her to feel that she has full autonomy over herself. It’s a complicated feeling I just wonder if I am looking for polyamorous and that I am a non-monogamous person. Sorry about the long text but I wanted to explain myself as best as I could.