Hey all, I’m new here, I figured this would be a good place to bring this up. I’m NB, 23, usually male presenting and identifying in daily life, and happily in a mono relationship nearing 3 years long with my gf (f, 24) and I love her to bits.

My gf is the only person I’ve actually had sex with. I’m a pretty hypersexual and I’m kinda addickted to fucking my ass with toys. We’ve played with this together a few times where she’ll fuck my ass with a dildo in her hand, or I’ll ride a big vibrator while she rides me, but she’s not much of a top. I’m usually the dominant in the relationship, and when I’m not feeling that role, it’s rare we have sex. On occasion she takes a more dominant role and enjoys it but only really with PIV sex with her on top. We’ve spoken about pegging and getting her a strap on and she says she’s into it, but there’s not much enthusiasm.

In the mean time I’m growing a curiosity for real dick. I’ve never been with a guy before. I thought I was straight for a long time but periodically question it. I can’t tell if I’m genuinely attracted to guys, or if it’s just a sexual thing when I’m already horny. I’m usually not attracted to guys like I am to girls but sometimes i meet a guy that I think I really am attracted to. Sometimes I get into these moods where I just want to be pinned down and fucked by someone the same way I fuck my girlfriend when I’m in a dominant mood. The moods last for days at a time and it’s hard to think about anything else while they last.

I also have a curiosity about being with other women, but honestly the desire is no where near as strong. I feel very satisfied in that regard. If I met a domme that I was attracted to that might be a different story though…

I have spoken to my girlfriend about wanting to explore my sexuality with others, having only been with her, while she has a lot more experience than me, and she understood despite it bringing up a lot of jealousy. While she understands, she still doesn’t want to open our relationship, and I would never cheat on her or want to force her into non-monogamy. But I can’t shake this desire!

I’m open to threesomes/foursomes etc, and open to finding partners myself if my girlfriend isn’t interested in joining. She knows this but gets caught on the jealousy thing. I can really understand this, having dealt with jealousy in the past, and I think I would have some jealousy to work through if we opened our relationship too, but I’m fully up for that knowing how secure our relationship is.

I’m not sure what advice I’m looking for, I’m partly writing this to vent to myself, but I’m curious if others have been in similar situations and how you dealt with it?