I came out to my husband of 17 years several months ago. He knew when we got together that I'd had some small experience with a girl in my teens but I fought the possibility of being bi for over 2 decades before I could no longer deny that side of myself. When I came out I had no intent in acting on it, I just needed to finally be free of the weight of my big secret. Since then my husband has repeatedly told me he's ok with me exploring with a woman. I need an emotional connection to feel sexually attracted to someone and that feels like cheating, not "just sex" but he insists "it's not if I say it okay". I'm torn. Part of me desperately wants to finally experience this part of me in it's fullness but I worry about my relationship. Theory and concept are one thing but what if I move forward and the reality isn't what he expected and it fractures our relationship? I plan to talk more with him about it but I don't even know where to start... Any stories of experience, tips for conversation or anything helpful would be much appreciated.