https://www.reddit.com/r/nonmonogamy/s/mSTXU0vINR <------- check this post out for context. It's the post I'm updating.

Yeah, my husband finally talked me into that there was nothing wrong with me or that my trust in him hadn't gone anywhere, I'm just not comfortable hearing sex.

I'll just leave, or head outside. So, yeah. 🤣

The big revelation though...

I don't have ANY healthy experiences to reference for Monogamy on my own. None. Non Monogamy only scares me because its new, but I know for sure I could never do monogamy again.

I'm scared of turning into a crazy cat lady. Valid. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Seriously though, it's not that I don't trust my husband, its literally just the unknown. I do the unknown every day without question. Sleeping...eating....you never TRULY know what's gonna happen....

So, that while shitty to come to the realization, it was really helpful. I just figured I would share. Maybe it'll help someone else.