Apparently polyamory was the wrong subreddit to post to. Anyway for most of my life I was thought I was straight and in college that didn’t work out. Every time I imagined kissing her I couldn’t mean it. So I didn’t, and I could see it breaking her heart. When I broke up, I assumed that was it, I must have been aro ace. It was’t just that I didn’t like anyone in high school, maybe I just never did and never would. I was okay with that.

So now nearly a year later I come across this sub-reddit. I still never ever want to be in a relationship. And some of the time i feel completely asexual, so who knows really.

But if I HAD to pick a sexual discipline that fits me, like forced at gunpoint, it would probably be this one. I’m definitely non-monogamous. At least from how i peeked a little into this subreddits conversations I dont want to be in a loving relationship but i could imagine in a crazy world being with a bunch of friends sexually.

Maybe? Is that even allowed? The moment those friends would start “liking” me romantically though and want to start living with me it would be over and I would lose all interest. It’s kind of an impossible situation to be in. The more I think about it though the more I want it though. I guess that could be me. It even sounds a little fun. How do you guys do it?