So my last post pissed a lot of people off.

Even with my hubs coming on to explain. 🤣

I don't really care. I was excited last night. Hubs actually read the post when I posted it. I finally conquered some serious fears.

1) Sex outside of my husband isn't bad. It won't always end badly.

2) My attachment to my bed was stupid. The things we do together matter, not where we do it. And the feeling I got cuddling in bed with him after the event actually was better than before.

3) I don't have to shame myself for having great sex with someone I barely know. They're hot, I'm hot, we're sexually attracted to each other. You're clean, I'm clean, let's go!

4) I totally get my hubs feelings on a lot of things a lot better now, and he understands mine a lot better too. Last night felt so nice, and his date night felt nice too.

I kinda can't wait for his turn. He's gonna have so much fun and he'll be so comfortable in his own environment. His FWB has already visited us both once so she'll be comfy too.

I can't wait for my turn again either.

The scheduling thing we have to do kinda irks me a little, but that's not either one of our faults. That's life, and the bills. We love our friends but we love our lights being on too 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 keep your fingers crossed we find a local fun and respectful FWB's a little closer to us. That would be fuuun.

I feel so much better and more secure about non monogamy. I haven't felt this secure in my relationship, ever. How ironic, but yet logical. 🤣

We really jive with the check in system we have. The week prior to the date. (Our date days are on Saturdays, so the monday prior) we give the other reassurances and lots of love all week long. The other returns it back, but we make sure to always make the other feel loved and secured.

Checks ins during the date itself at home are SO MUCH EASIER. Yeah we could text, ooooor we could walk downstairs. 🤣🤣🤣🤣

I'm digging this set up. But I still can't wait for the loft to be finished in our garage next year. Then overnights can happen here. We wanna set it up right and make sure it's comfy and cozy.

I'm so excited, and I'm happy I said yes to trying this again all those months ago.

All the jealousy, the envy, the feelings of wanting to run, the feelings of perceived betrayal, all the conversations, all the therapy, it was worth it. Every moment.

I know we will still have challenges. That's life, but I'm a lot less worried about them. Life is about living, and we're doing that hand in hand. 🥰