https://www.reddit.com/r/nonmonogamy/s/WwjFvd5rhn

You can see the original there!

So they are an hour into their date. It's been a roller coaster.

My meta came over a few hours earlier to hang out. It was fantastic. She gave me one of her gummies, and I was unaware it was a Sativa gummy. Total accident. Thankfully I listened to my intuition and only ate a little bit of it. Sativa is NOT great for me. Hybrids or Indica. That succccckkkeeeddd. But being okay for my kids kept me going. I'm home alone with them. Nothing helps you get your shit together like youngins who are smart and emotional little empaths. This experience for us is life changing in its own right, but for them, this is a life experience that will affect them for the rest of their lives. I have to do it right.

I handled it well when my husband came home. I did shed a few tears but it was well maintained and I still uplifted him and he gave me reassurances and had a little fun with me before he left. I kissed him goodbye, and watched him walk about the door.

Me and the kids waited for the pizza, it came quickly after their daddy left. We started Mario Party. I quickly noticed my oldest was UBER IRRITABLE and snapping at everything. After three times of asking her if she was okay, I pulled her to the side and simply asked her directly if her Daddy leaving to go to dinner with someone else was triggering her. She said yes.

I give her reassurances, and everything was fine after that. My husband and my meta have been texting me. I feel pretty good about things and I'm feeling compersion now. We still have an hour and thirty minutes to go roughly before he comes home. I'm not really nervous but I am wondering what will happen.

I will update y'all again tonight after everything is said and done if not tomorrow. I'm pretty proud of myself. Tonight has been a WILD ride, and its been quite a bit. I'm ready for tomorrow, and not because of the date, but because today has just been a lot. I'm not feeling any real negative emotions. I'm just sitting in anticipation. What happened? Was it fun? How was he? How was she?! And its all in excitement!!

Squee. I'm doing so much better than I thought so far.