Background: 27F, married for 7 years to husband, 28M. He is straight and I am bisexual. I became comfortable with my bisexuality when I was about 21/22. We talked over the course of many years about my bisexuality and if I wanted to explore or not. Spoiler: I would like to explore with women and he’s cool with it, and he doesn’t really care to be involved. If it happens down the line, cool, but that is NOT the expectation.

I’ve met up with several women from dating apps over the past few years. I’ve never done anything more than hug them, mostly because I don’t feel comfy kissing on the first meeting, much less having sex. Well, recently, I met a really cool woman and we vibe really well. Idk if I want to go further yet.

This is where I need help.

I love my husband more than anything, and he loves me. He’s completely okay with me exploring women. I thought I was too, until I started thinking about kissing someone else. I’ve fantasized about kissing and having sex with women, but now that I’m meeting up with women and things could turn physical, I’m nervous. The thought of kissing someone else is scary. I’m scared that it will feel like cheating. How do I know if I’m built for this? I know I’m under no obligation to explore but I still want to figure out what’s going on with me. The thought of being in a three way relationship sounds interesting and fun, and thinking about (down the line) my husband and another woman (with my consent) having sex sounds hot, but is this the right path for me? Do I have stuff to unpack or work to do?

TLDR; married, wanting to explore women, very nervous to get physical, help?