old “fwb” has been trying for months to talk since I broke it off back in june. all while he started taking this new girl on dates and hanging out/f*cking her around the time I broke it off. (I broke it off for different reasons) I completely went NC with him once I found out. and he’s just relentless in trying to get me to talk this out. I told him to give me space and maybe we would talk once I’m back in town. I really don’t want to talk to him though, I won’t be there to soften the blow of his actions. he knows I’ve been done with this for so long and he just always reels me back in somehow and it’s so selfish. this has always been kind of a complicated thing. we said we loved each other often, we don’t love or cuddle with anyone else. but we both know we aren’t compatible relationship wise. I think we were both confused on what we really felt/wanted. I’m hurt that after everything I am now the back up plan.

and before y’all come for me i know we were never exclusive. he told me he didn’t want to date me but I wanted to go out and about once in awhile which I’m learning to him is dating. so I’m just hurt he can casually date another girl but he doesn’t want to “date” a girl he loves . idk I want us both to be able to have our fun I don’t want exclusivity but I don’t love anyone else and I don’t want him to love anyone else either. I think part of this shitty feeling is feeling like he may love this new girl or could love her eventually. they hang out like I wanted us to. regardless of what we were it still hurts seeing that. idk I think I’m just here venting and maybe to get some perspective on the situation. Ive never had something like this before. also, the sex was soooo amazing. honestly probably the best in my life which is a big part of why I’ve hung on for so long.🙃

some texts between us so maybe y’all get a better vibe of what this is lol second pic is a few weeks after first pic