I just noticed every post that I put in here, goes on my wall, so, I decided to use that and kinda keep a physical record of my accomplishments and stuff. Plus, y'all are REALLY supportive and have been helpful and kind. Y'all are awesome, please remember that incase you forgot today 🥰

I met a really nice girl, but I wasn't attracted to her. I have RSD (Rejection sensitivity dysphoria) and it works BOTH ways. I can expect a high emotional response to getting rejection, but I have always had an issue with giving it too.

So instead, for the longest, I'd shut the fuck up and stay in a relationship I didn't wanna be in, just to not hurt their feelings. Joy. Oh, it didn't stop at just romantic ones, noooo, that would be too easy. Think all relationships. Period.

My boundaries? Catered to other peoples needs. My wants and desires? Based off other peoples wants and needs.

I had a serious love for putting myself on the back burner. It was a small back burner too, I didn't have the room to do SHIT.

Today, I didn’t. I put myself on the countertop, because who the fuck wants to be on a burner?! 🤣🤣🤣 Today I chose me. I didn’t want to have a sexual relationship with a person, and I told them that. Kindly, politely and with respect to boot. I made a cool friend out of it actually. She's pretty neat.

I know it seems small, but to me, it's a huge win. Me also understanding I have my own autonomy in this too, and feeling safe to express that. HUGE wins. I'm proud of me 🥰🥰🥰🥰

Also, I've been very respectful of my husband's autonomy. HUGE WIN! In the past, if something made me uncomfy, he couldn't do it without a snotty nose, lots of tears and a fight from me. Now it's uncomfortable at worst when he makes a choice for himself I don't like.

Squee!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰