So, hi. Some of you may remember my last post, where I was happy that I was okay and doing emotionally well with the idea of my husband having hookups.

Nothing has changed there. Hooray!

Buuuut.... I had my first video chat tonight with a cute girl. Everything was going well, and then it got a little sexually flirtatious.

I felt so wrong inside. But I like her, I think she's hot. She's got a great personality. She's a little rough around the edges but ain't we all?

I felt like I was cheating on my husband. I felt like I was hiding something. I felt so dirty. On the other hand, again, I really like her. She's gonna be a good friend and an awesome FWB maybe. I talked to my hubs. He high fived me, told me I was fine, and we had GREAT sex, he even asked me to mention her name and it was incredibly hot to him.

Is this normal? Has anyone experienced this before? I know in my head I'm doing nothing wrong, and that I have the autonomy to do as I please as long as I stay within our boundaries, agreements and rules. But my feelers are screaming something different. Some of them anyway.

Heeellppp!