My (35M) wife (33F) opened the marriage in an ethical way asking if it was okay including that she needs others to feel not lonely. I am not seeking partners and have no feelings of need for others in our relationship. She has so far gone on several dates and every time I feel down, hurt, and upset. I know I am not enough, since I knew she was Poly leaning when I married her 14 years ago. I feel grateful she stuck with me through all this, and she tells me I am the most important in her life when I fall into my sad depression spiral. She has refused any kind of restrictions or rules for either of us though she revealed she would be hurt if I did find someone else too. I don't want to hurt her anymore and I want to stop feeling Jealous, Down, and Hurt all the time. It makes us being together hard sometimes. I know there is no magic way for me to just be fine. But I am coming here for advice how to work my way to being better about this experience. Her being with others objectively, should be okay, I like the thoughts of multiple partners, and other kinds of spicy things in a relationship but right now my feelings are not being okay. I believe it's mostly my insecurities and depression beating on me. I just don't know how to control my emotions long enough to get through this adjustment period.