Please be kind! I'm really struggling rn.

I'm bisexual. I lean pretty fair on the lesbian side especially romantically. My relationship with my husband is mostly sexual and friendship. I've dated other women since we've been married and I currently have a gf.

We have been trying to have a baby for the last 2 years. I finally got pregnant at the end of May but sadly ended in a miscarriage earlier this week. Now we need to start all over again, but we don't have much money left for more treatment.

My parents have offered to help us. They have been kind and good parents to me, but they are very religious. Because of this I haven't told them anything about my sexuality or my gf. I don't think they would completely disown me but they have been very clear that they don't approve of "the gay lifestyle". It would destroy our relationship. If they knew the truth about me, they would not be helping us have a baby.

We are talking to them tomorrow about it. We are only going to ask for a few 1000. Enough to try a couple more cycles with the medication I was on.

Is accepting this money okay? I know I could stay in the closet the rest of my life, but the weight of the secret is so heavy for me. Wearing the mask of the person they think I am is draining and disheartening.