Before I get into this, I do actually want to branch into the lifestyle. It’s something I want to do and learn more about but I have such an intense fear and anxiety surrounding it I can’t sit down and have a discussion about it without completely breaking down. I’ve been comparing it to wanting to ride a roller coaster sososo badly but it’s sososo terrifying that I can’t get over my fear and just do the damn thing. I know I’ll like it and have a good time. I just can’t get over this weird ass funk I have about it. I did start reading Ethical Slut by Dossie Easton and Janet Hardy and it’s helped me understand my fears a little more. I think I just have a lot of really big thoughts and shame that I’ve bottled up for a long time, but does anyone have any advice? Any similar experiences out there? Just to clarify: NM is something I would like to do. Me and my husband are both heavily interested, I just have a lot of mental hang ups that I don’t quite understand.