Not sure if I’m posting in the right place for this question, please lmk if not. And based on my post, please please don’t come for me. Really trying to think this through before moving forward or holding off…

Long story short, my husband (m32) and I (f33) decided to bring in a 3rd partner earlier this year. He found someone for us, and she’s cool, but I’m not really attracted to her for anything long term. That said, I recently told him I didn’t want to pursue her anymore, but open to someone else.

That said, I consider myself bisexual; however, recently, I have been intrigued with the thought of seeing him be pegged or with another guy. I actually am pretty positive he’d be open to being pegged (not so sure about being with another guy, yet), but I have this lingering fear that if he is too into it, it might be a turn off for me. Like, if he takes it “too” good I have this weird fear that he would prefer men over me. And on the flip side, if we invited a 3rd in who is male, even though I’d want to see him bottom, I also don’t think I can separate that from looking at him differently as lesser masculine. Or if he gave a BJ too well, idk how I could take that in the moment.

Like, even though I want to see it, I’m slightly afraid it might taint the image of him I have, if that makes sense.

Hoping for some advise from women who have had a similar experience or similar wants, and how you overcame your own mind? I mentioned me being bi because I recognize this is a “me” thing and quite hypocritical, but I’m just being honest and seeking some thoughts before I either ask my husband or suppress the want. Any advice would be great.