About a week or so ago I made a post here about how I was progressing my relationship with a married couple, and things were coming to a brink with the husband specifically as we were about to do MDMA together and there was a LOT of tension between us.

Well, luckily for me, we ended up having sex a few days before doing MDMA and aired out our feelings. It was such a relief, and the sex was fucking amazing. Our chemistry was insane, and it really felt like a culmination of the full year of tension between us. When we did MDMA, we had a LOT of really fucking good sex but also talked a lot about being ENM, especially because it's so new for me. I realize I've connected with the idea of it for a lot longer than I thought, and especially now that I am exploring what it means to be poly, it just feels so right for me. Non monogamy has just clicked everything into place.

In this specific relationship, It feels a bit silly to say but I feel like I'm experiencing all the sexy, fantasy aspects of having an affair like in a movie without actually having that infidelity. It's this rush of taboo with having sex with someones husband, but then the comfort after of the wife texting me about how hot it is that I fucked him. I seriously can't get over it, it's not just the best sex I've ever had but also fulfills a fantasy I absolutely never would have acted on in my life.

I've also not had a lot of sex with men as I've identified as a lesbian for most of my life, and I really fucking love it. This is the first time I'm actually able to explore my bisexuality after being in a 4 year relationship with a woman. But I know I never would have felt as comfortable if it wasn't for my partner specifically. Being friends for the last year has really helped, especially when I have already told him all the things I like in bed. The chemistry between us is just unreal.

I know it's the NRE talking, but I'd rather ride the NRE than spend the entire time fearing it's inevitable end. I feel like I'm experiencing so many new things and exploring so much about myself, and I couldn't be happier right now. And wow, the sex. Holy shit. It's so good lol.