Hello hello. Tldr at the bottom

I’ve been nonmonogamous for most of my dating life (5 years, I’m in my early twenties). I don’t date monogamous people, easier for me and them.

I’ve been dating someone I like a lot, and he’s cool with non-monogamy. He isn’t as sexual as I am, and in general needs more of an emotional connection beforehand. He went on a date but then decided not to go on any more because he’s got his hands full with the rest of his life (and me, wink wink).

I genuinely think he’s happy for me being nonmonogamous and doing whatever I want (following our safe sex guidelines). He hasn’t expressed jealously to me recently, and I’ve validated my care for him tenfold so he knows I like him a lot.

The thing is, I still get pangs of guilt when I think about doing stuff with other people, even though it’s OKAY!!!! What the hell.

Tldr: why do I feel guilty for being with others when my partner is ok with it?! And what can I do about it/please share your experiences, hearing from others helps so much.

Thanks everyone, this has been weighing on my mind a lot ✨✨

Edited to make it more streamlined. I have a separate question that I’ll probs ask in another post