So the past month or so my SO and I have had our relationship open(primarily for exploring BDSM). We have both been talking to people, and have met up with our chosen play partners once each. In my case it was a good experience, spent a day with the person getting to know them then ended up having sex that night, we clicked on so many levels that I got very confused, for a while I thought I was polyamorous, and that I wanted to actually date this person.

Fast forward a few weeks and booth myself and my SO talk to my play partner and in this time I've come to realize that, no I am not poly, yes I care deeply about this person but not in a romantic way, but in a protective friend way. My SO thinks I wont know how I will feel when I meet her again, but I do, I could have, in the past, dated and fallen for this person, but I am so completely in love with my SO.

I have no room for other romantic relationships in my heart. Oh there's lots of room for love, I am a big hearted and soft hearted person, but not romantic...that is reserved for just one, so I have come to learn.

So in short I was confused about my feelings but as our relationship has gotten better and better I am feeling like the whole open thing is less and less something I really care about doing. I think about exploring with my play partner and all I can think is how much I would rather be doing that exploring with my SO.