Sorry I deleted the last post.

Recap - I started slipping in chocolate into the bag of my work crush. And I can't help staring at her all the time.

Recently, we kinda interact more and it just make it worse. So, I built up courage, write a speech and practise it the whole day. I had the chance so many time and I keep Choking. Once we were both alone in a break room and I mutter up whatever left of my courage and hands her the chocolate (which is the same as the one I slipped in her bag and it's unique), she was confused and shocked. She asked where I get it from and if it's from company. Well, interaction was awkward and confusing. But at least she know they are from me.

So, that's it, nothing else frigging came out of my mouth. Dang it! I slap myself in restroom. I waited for her to get work off from the car. I finish 10m early and yet she finish 10m late. And she was talking with her friends near her car for 10m. Again, my stupid social anxiety won't let me go out of the car. Instead I just realise I have been staring the whole time like a creep.

Once I got home, I started contacting some of the close co-worker and got her number. I built up my courage and explained everything. How my intentions and approached are misaligned and ended up being creep. She's super nice and friendly. When I confess my crush and ask her to be friends, she said she already in relationship and don't expect anything weird from her side. Understandable and what I expected.

So what next? I plan on building a platonic friendship and hopefully work toward a romantic friendship. We are both Asian, so talking about ENM gonna be hard.