What now?

If you read my last post I go into about how I was very interested in a mutual friend of a friend and my partner had a very hard time with it.

That friend and I decided mutually it would be best if we don’t try to explore things because my relationship is rocky and they don’t feel comfortable exploring it while it’s like that in fear of feeling used or as a distraction.

When I told my partner she was upset because it’s not because I didn’t want to it’s because of the timing.

I’m new being non monag and I am still wrapping my head around that I have a crush. I feel guilty in a way…. I also can’t act on it and it’s been bringing me down.

My partner feels guilty for not letting me explore it but seems happier that I’ve made the decision I’ve made.

I guess it’s all about having time pass so I can get passed my crush and excitement I felt about connecting with this person?