I don't know if this is me giving you guys an update or just elaborating on what happened the past week

So, we decided to break up. It was sad, but we decided to keep being present in each other's lives. I came to the conclusion that I have way deeper issues that make me so dependent of her, and jealous whenever she gets with other people and I'll be with myself for a while until I'm more confident to be in a relationship again. I'm doing therapy, now once a week instead of once every two weeks, seeing a psychiatrist, reconnecting with friends and hobbies and listening to a lot of podcasts about insecurities and NM. I'm taking myself to the movies today!

What I find funny is that everyone who gave me advice made me realize that I might be monogamous, and that I had a very toxic view of what monogamy is like. I'm still not sure, but have decided to work on myself first, and then think and explore what I want in a relationship.

I'm feeling less anxious and looking forward to plan my life without someone else for the first time in, like, 7 years (I've been jumping from one relationship to another). My ex is demonstrating grief more than I am. I'm trying to give her support, but still making sure she has it from other people, but still don't know how to find a healthy balance of those things.

Overall, I wanted to thank you guys for all the advice I received! It was very insightful and useful. I think I'll survive heheh