Hi all! I find this sub so supportive and helpful and wanted to ask for some advice again. Fast forward a few months since I last posted and I've met someone who I enjoy spending time with and chatting with. We finally had sex and its the first time I've slept with anyone else but my primary partner in many years. I felt proud of myself for even getting to this point but also really unsure of what I was feeling afterwards. Part of me was excited, happy, numb, disappointed and confused all at the same time, which felt SO ODD. Happy/excited because I finally had sex with another person, numb because I was unsure of how to process it, disappointed because the sex wasn't as mind-blowing as I wanted/I feel like I was really nervous and not 100% myself, and confused because I have no idea where this goes now.

Am I a total crazy person for not feeling over the moon happy? I don't think I have any NRE and that feels weird.

Tl:dr: I just had sex for the first time with someone outside of my primary relationship and I have no idea how to process it. Any advice?

As always, thank you :)