Something I struggle with is my foresight -- it's usually bang on but takes a toll on my mental health, so I guess I'm looking to lighten the load with this post.

I know the best thing to do is to talk to my ENM partner about these feelings, and for that matter my therapist, but I'd like to hear from others who struggle with severe loneliness and/or being clingy and not having your partner around to help deal with it.

I love that my partner found someone else to open a piece of her heart to, I'm very pro-poly and love when people fall in love... but how do you manage when you want it to be your turn again and life just feels in the way of that coming naturally? I get so overwhelmed.

At the moment, everything's great between us because we have boundaries around time apart. Schedule's being opposite, she has plenty of time in a week to manage another relationship.

Only now she wants to take the next step into actual poly, which in my mind would mean sleepover's and Holidays and potentially vacations... I just don't know if I'm ready for all that.

I feel sick at the idea of making myself alone because I wanted to be progressive and accidentally talked my way out of a once in a lifetime relationship.

Not that a little bit of hurt would end things for us, but that I guess I wouldn't ever be as happy again after that level of hurt was felt.

Looking at the words, it's looks so silly, but I keep running in circles with this.

Anyone else feel this way and how do you deal with it?

TIA