Long post, tldr is - I felt I was separate from myself in a sea of consciousness for a while. What is this?

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I am continuing my journey of listening to God, exploring consciousness etc. I am having interesting experiences so I am persevering.

I've reached a point in which all my reading (I read a lot of spiritual and psych stuff) seems to be converging at certain areas. Though I'm familiar with many of the terms used, I feel that I've reached a point where practice is much more important than further book learning. It's easy to get muddled in words - I want to go beyond that. (words are only pointing at the moon, etc)

I've been using the Buddhist "I Am" exercises as a focal point, bringing my attention back to consciousness. I feel more "distant" from the world, as in I am aware that my mind is thinking, but I'm not my mind. The periods this is happening (like now) are getting longer. Is the permanent state awakening?

I'm also aware that my mind is racing to find answers, and I have this sense of bemusement at its antics.

The voices have been guiding me to do different things, like trying to game with this sense of awareness. It feels different. Why I'm making the post is that I felt that I was one with the sea of consciousness, but it felt somehow incomplete.

There was still a "me" that was "one" with consciousness. I felt I could understand how consciousness could expand to include everything, but that was conceptual - I couldn't feel it in the soul or body.

Most of what I have read on non-duality says that it's like opening a door to a new world, this felt close but no cigar.

I realized I rambled on trying to put everything into words lol. I hope what I am saying makes sense.