I had posted a few weeks back about how great I felt 6 months after the breakup, doing no contact. You can look at my previous post for details. Long story short, very ugly breakup, she lives in my apartment and 6 months later I feel like I'm in my prime. Or atleast I felt that way until I broke NC.

A day before I left my country for the US to pursue my masters, I decided that I'm in a healthy place and would reach out to her to meet her and say goodbye. I guess I wanted closure and was feeling uncomfortable with the idea of just leaving and not saying goodbye.

After we talked, she told me that she has been in an "intense and passionate relationship" with a guy I had considered to be one of my closest friends less than a couple of weeks after our breakup. Apparently they were considering a long term relationship already but she cheated on him again with his other friend. But apparently they got it back together or something.

I feel crushed. I feel betrayed. The feelings of me being a fundamentally unlovable person and my insecurities came rushing back. I'm in the US right now but I feel so broken that I'm not able to feel good about being in this wonderful city and the new opportunities and experiences. I'm not able to feel good about my wins. It's ruined everything. I hope this goes away soon.