Before she become my girlfriend 19F we had a friendship of 2 years till she asked me 19F to be her girlfriend, then we dated for 1year till she broke up with me, our relationship wansnt perfect and our communication style isn’t the same so we just had more issues than positives in our relationship.

We had our fwb moment where we still hang out and be (friends) till we had a massive falling out involving parents yelling saying some hatful things.

It’s now been 7months of no contact since that happened, and during that the no contact period one of my best friends who i introduced to my ex decided to stab me in the back and hang out with my ex instead of me, despite us being family friends and having history together.

I have no respect for my ex but I miss the memories, I think my ex is a horrible person but still miss everything we did together, she took everything she needed from me and left, and now she’s acting like this queen. She continues to (steal) my friends by commenting, and liking their pictures reaching out and starting conversations with my closest friends, despite her telling her friends to block me. I don’t interact with her nor any of her friends but she still dose.

I’m struggling with severe ruminating thoughts, and every night I’ll have a dream of her and they are mostly sex dreams of us making up and forgiving each other. Every night.

I don’t respect her nor do I want her back due to self respect and not wanting to repeat and go through what I went with her again

I’m really struggling and it’s month 7 of no contact and I’m not getting better