It says that this subreddit is closed.... Well, I see very recent posts. Nobody understands except my best friend, and to a very large extent, my mother. Look, I don't understand the philosophical things that I'm seeing on this subreddit. I've always said that I "don't have philosophy." It's been annoying when people out there have thought that I've been afraid because I "don't have philosophy."

Well, multiple people, including my best friend, have suggested that I'm a nihilist.

It's true that I don't truly care about anything. When I first moved into this apartment in 2019, I posted to the hobbies subreddit because I was terrified of not having anything to do being in my apartment all day! I just told my mother that a month ago, I couldn't take living by focusing on supposed hobbies anymore. My mother told me, "So what? I don't have any hobbies! I just listen to things on my iPad!", in return. To that, I told my mother, "Yeah, but you work!"

Kinda sucks.... Yeah, I'm taking medication for depression. My best friend told me, "You seem to care about having something to care about.", when I told her that I don't truly care about anything and that it's always been this way.

Edit: People who have assumed that I've been scared because I "don't have philosophy" are like the people who have said that I've "been scared to make a choice" when the choices have sucked.

Edit 2: The problem is that I care about specific people, not things. Oh, but people can be fleeting, can't they?