If I offend anyone I apologize in advance because that is not my intention, I'm just looking for some answers into my own situation and can't seem to find the right place to ask.

Ok. I'll try to explain this as best as I can. I'm 57 years old, a mtf transgender, and because of childhood trauma I also age regress back to around the age of 6 when I become stressed or threatened. My childhood was far from being normal. My father sexually, physically, and emotionally abused me. But that wasn't the worst, he also went as far to literally torture me (burning me, cutting me, tying me and doing sick things to me, trying to drown me, and so on.)

As for my mom she knew all this was going on and did nothing to stop it, and in fact she wasn't much better herself as she was also emotionally and physically abusive. Whenever I tried to seek comfort or even love from her, she would either hit me, push me away, yell at me and tell me to stop being bad, or stop embarrassing her.

So now as and adult I have to deal with nightmares that just never seem to go away, and moments when just out of nowhere I'll just start crying.

I find that being able to age regress helping to calm myself. However, there is also something that worries me, and that is sometimes my regressing happens involuntary, it just depends on how bad the situation is. I'm currently seeing a therapist, and she is aware of this and says as long as it's not interfering with my daily functioning, she doesn't see any harm. But, she still keeps a close eye on my situation.

I just wanted to know, has anyone else ever experienced anything similar due to a traumatic childhood?