Aside from my undiagnosed conditions(ive had doctors hint at things but never diagnosed or helped with a diagnosis)

My anxiety accompanied with my condition has made me feel and seem dumb to others and it makes life frustrating.

I tried to.train members of the staff at my job how to add social media pic links to their email today and when something didn't work I freaked out in my head and start scrolling and clicking through different tabs to jog my memory.

On of the staff members started telling me how to do it but her method didn't work then finally i remembered i had a google doc with the instructions i made when i first figured it out. I referenced that to show them how to do it.

But after the meeting i felt they may have not felt i was educated on social media stuff. Theres a chance thats not the case but i had an incident prior that gave me trauma around when i make a mistake.

Its not just with work its with alot of interactions i have. Ill mess up and i get side glances or i think i did something and it turns out i didn't but my brain decided to tell me i did making others see me as irresponsible or dingy and out to space(i do dissociate sometimes)

I really really try to be presentable and not be a pain to others but i always mess up. And its not a good feeling at all.